What I learned when I thought I was about to die: being too aware of life’s blessings can become a curse

I recently experienced a near-fatal brain bleeding while surfing, leading to a massive stroke that felt like a mini-stroke. The ordeal, including physical symptoms and emotional devastation, was paralleled by reflections on my friend’s sudden death in childhood. This experience forced me to confront mortality and find balance between gratitude and fear. I realized the importance of cherishing life’s moments while remaining aware of its fragility, ultimately finding peace in accepting my own mortality as part of what makes me human.